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PTSD

The pain and embarrassment still sits.

Memories and feelings

Coming and going,, good and bad

Deep down I love you

And at times I hate you

Because I gave my all

You took me for granted

A tiger cant change its stripes

I know you're trying

I'm trying

We're trying

But nothings the same

The way you hold me now, makes me cry

I've always wanted you to hold me like this

Like you never wanted to let me go

The way you kiss me now.. so sweet

The way you care.. so intentional

It's everything I've wanted from the beginning

So now I only live for our short moments

I exxpect nothing more or less

I fear I will become to attached again

I fear that you will change again

I fear that the love from me to you will never be the same

What if my fears make you stop loving me?

I'm afraid to be alone again

So I settle

Knowing that I need more

Knowing that we are too different

But I'd do it all again

Fall in love with you.

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